RIP Aniuta/Jaconda78

For anyone who doesn’t know by now Aniuta/Jaconda78/my 6th vegas roommate who I lived with for a month this summer recently took her own life. You can learn more about the situation from her ex-boyfriend’s blog brystmar here. I am very saddened and shocked by the news. It came as a complete surprise as I had no idea she had feelings of depression or loneliness at all. My condolences go out to her family as well as Thomas. I hope they all fully recover from this as I know that the death of someone close to you can really scar you for life.

Aniuta, while a bit quirky(aren’t most pro poker players?), always seemed ready to have a good time, was seemingly addicted to live poker as she’d play ridiculously long 12 hour long live sessions regularly and showed great potential as a female poker player and it saddens me she chose to end her life so early. She finished 18th in the ladies event this summer, you can view her pokerpages.com page here one of only two events I believe she played.

I am reminded of one night this summer driving back from a party at Thomas’ house with two of my other roommates, Ben and Shayne, and we talked about her relationship with Thomas a bit. I expressed my feelings how it was clear to me that Thomas viewed their relationship as more of a fun fling hookup, whereas Aniuta thought their relationship was much more serious and viewed them as boyfriend/girlfriend. I thought it was a bit concerning at the time and maybe one of us should tell Aniuta to not take their relationship too seriously as I could see their breakup looming even then. Instead, I didn’t see that much of Aniuta as she was usually gone doing or own thing, or when she was around the house I didn’t bother to take the time to talk to her about it. Now I in no way feel responsible for her death, and neither should Thomas, she is solely responsible for her actions, and this type of relationship is fairly common for people in their early 20s but I can’t help but feel if I had talked to her then I might have increased the likelihood of her not ending her own life by a very small %. I can never know and I will live with the feeling for the rest of my life. All I can say is if you are privy to some knowledge you believe may help someone near you for the coming months of their lives, don’t stay quiet about it no matter how awkward or painful the conversation may be. It is worth the effort and you never know what you may regret.